I’m so tired and am up too late. I’m struggling with relating to my friends. I don’t know how to relate to anyone anymore. I have my family which I’m so over the moon about, but my other friends? I don’t know how to relate to them anymore. They don’t get it. Really. It’s not the same anymore. Makes me so sad. I don’t know what to do about it.
I really like my Dermatologist. When I walked into the exam room this morning for the procedure it kind of rattled me because it looked like a mini-operating room, literally. With the big light/lamp thing from the ceiling. I was already emotional driving out to the appointment but walking in to that room (but it was only because it was better light for him to make sure he could get the clean margins we needed) just messed me up a bit. The a-typical cells the path report came back was NOT pre-melanoma Dr. L assured me. Just not benign cells, which is what we want. And I asked him if there was any way to know if the a-typical cells had to do with the CS (genes and cells being mutated and all that) but he didn’t know…I don’t know if science or medicine has gotten that advanced yet, hah.
Dr. L was really great, assured me this was super easy, cake. I have been through WAY worse…and that I’m just spooked (his words), which really hit the nail on the head. And now I have stitches in another area of my body for another 2 weeks, ugh. I was doing kind of OK for the most part, after the shots took effect I didn’t feel a thing. UNTIL I saw the stitch/suture stuff. He kind of lifted it across my head to get it ready and then I felt sick to my stomach. I told him, “Um, Dr. L I don’t think I should have seen that. I don’t feel so good and my stomach hurts like I’m going to be sick.” So sue me. I’m a wimp. I don’t think he judged me but I didn’t like seeing that stuff!
I love Instagram and am hooked on taking photos of my nephews and my family and random stuff all over the place. This was a light pink flower I saw on my walk today that I made look super cool! Trust me…it was NOT that pink looking when I saw it this afternoon. 🙂