My mom’s quote – very wise woman.
It dawned on me today that Cowden’s Syndrome makes me fearful of making commitments. Or certain plans.
I have a long-term subbing job position (opportunity). I was offered the assignment it a few days before my ER visits of earlier this week.
I have fought some anxiety with how in the crap I am to do both: work (my life) and Cowden’s Syndrome.
I met my new endocrinologist today. (Dr. F is you see this…oh man. I miss you so much now!) – and I really do like Dr. S. He was funny and spent a lot of time with me. He went through (as thoroughly as he could) about ADH hormones and elevated/low levels and what they mean, and the possible Celexa connection. He’s starting tests, blood draws, and oh the best one. 24-hour urine collection.
Diabetes insipidus is an autoimmune syndrome, evidently. I remember reading once somewhere that if you have one autoimmune condition you are more likely to get more.
I called Mom after the appointment and said to her that Cowden’s Syndrome is a b*tch because it makes me feel like I can’t do anything. I’m scared to do ANYTHING because of doctors, appointments, etc. getting in the way.
Then she told me the above quote.
I thought about it afterwards that I just will do this job until I can’t anymore. Whenever that is. But my health has to be top priority and while I am committing to this position to the best of my ability, I only have today.
We all have only today.