You know, I read a lot about how in the midst of trials and affliction we need to be grateful. And, I even heard last night at Institute class we need to be grateful for our tribulations. Now, I’m not at that point yet. I’m not there – grateful for the brain tumors, rare disease diagnosis, losing my job, the lifestyle I had before all of this. Maybe I will be, one day, but today is not that day.
But, I will say that I have thought about some of the blessings in my life, that have come since diagnosis. Maybe I wouldn’t choose these, but I don’t think that matters. I mean, a blessing is a blessing, right? Who am I to say, “Oh, thank you Lord for this blessing but I wanted that one, instead?” Nono. Doesn’t work that way. AT LEAST – I know now that it doesn’t work that way. And, I guess isn’t that part of life? To learn, grow, progress, and see things with new eyes?
So, here we go. Now, a small disclaimer: this isn’t an open invitation to discuss Obamacare, or the ACA. I actually have very strong feelings about that and I am not going to go into here. Because gratitude. I am a recipient. And, I need to say thank you. Thank You. To those of you that have been affected negatively by Obamacare – I have been affected in a positive way. I don’t know if this makes any difference to you – but, I Thank You for helping me with my medical issues.
As things have progressed since the first of the year, I haven’t had to pay for any of my medications. I take many medications that I will not list here, but each time I leave the pharmacy, I say a small “Thank You” to Heavenly Father and to those of you have been burdened. This is a huge deal. Separate from the fact that I had to pay $500 to the Feds for taxes for last year (Unemployment monies that I am no longer eligible to receive) things are pretty tight right now. Very tight. Thankfully, Mom loaned me the money for the Feds but other than that? I don’t know how it would work if I had to pay monthly for all my medications. I haven’t ever added up that monthly cost because I know the total amount would sicken me about as much as the $500 tax bill did!
Each time I have a brain scan, or abdominal ultrasound, or breast MRI, or doctor visit, I don’t have to pay for those either. Wow.
Just sitting here, typing this out, I’m overwhelmed. I may get on the pity pot many times a day about how my life has changed negatively and I cannot do the things I once did (financially or sometimes otherwise), I am so thankful to have the burden of my medical being taken care of today. Again, I feel bad for those of you who are impacted negatively by Obamacare, because I feel I am a cause of your pain and struggle. I would be remiss if I didn’t Thank You for helping me.