Something happened to me at church today, and I really didn’t like it. I teach Relief Society once a month and this morning during the lesson I got very dizzy and lost my balance. (Thankfully I didn’t faceplant). I was embarrassed and really scared. I know that most of the sisters thought I was getting emotional about what I was reading, although a few sisters (who know my history) knew exactly what was happening.
I was fighting a headache all morning. Then that happened. It kind of felt like I was on a roller coaster ride and it was still moving, although I wasn’t. I grabbed a chair and very carefully sat down on it. It was the weirdest thing. Sure, I get dizzy when I lay down for bed. Or, when I’m turning over in bed. Or, when I am walking and I look down, or any such thing. But, this was new. And, I didn’t like it.
I guess this is brain tumor life. Or, Lhermitte-duclos life. Or, brain surgery life. Who knows. It’s just terrifying. Scary, unknown stuff and I’m scared this dizzy crap is going to start really interfering with my quality of life.
Crap. Freaking crap crap crap.