Is there ever going to be a time in my life where surgery isn’t up for discussion?
I really don’t know what to do. I have had most of the “main” surgeries associated with Cowden Syndrome (thyroidectomy and hysterectomy). But, there’s another one: double mastectomy.
If you were high-risk for breast cancer and were told there’s no “if” but “when” you will get it…what would you do?
What could you do? The data “says” that I have an 85% lifetime risk to get breast cancer.
Yep; you read that right.
It’s on the table again. It’s on my mind again; however, was it ever off my mind?
I think I have (had?) convinced myself that every 6 months for the next 10 years (ish) of my life I would (could?) worry about my Dairy Queens? Breathe a labored sigh of relief after every “normal” mammogram, but still hearing “dilated ducts” and wondering what the eff that means? Alternating between a mammogram and another sort of test (ultrasound, MRI), and don’t forget the clinical breast exam kickers.
I can’t do this.
But, I can’t keep doing this either.
How do I make this monumental life decision alone? How do I prepare for any and all mental ramifications if/when I decide to do this “next” surgery?