Daily Prompt [Shock]

First off, HAHAHAHHAHHAAAA.

Secondly, this prompt is pretty accurate considering my mood today.  I just spent $50 to fill up my gas tank, and my monthly credit card payment is now up to $250/month.  Will anyone else be shocked when I cannot pay the bill anymore?

Thirdly, I could actually make a list filled of all the things that have shocked me these past 7 years.  I won’t bore you with it though.

I’m sick.  I’m pissed.  Why couldn’t I have been approved for the damn disability?!  I deserve it!  I need it.  I am entitled to it!  I’m tired of complaining and I’m tired of struggling.  All I pray for is financial stability and yet (if I live another 30 years) I don’t ever see that happening.

When I file bankruptcy, or am forced to file, that will only be a short-term fix for a lifetime problem.  I can’t work as I once did.  I can’t even make enough money to finance my life – the bare necessities even.

I don’t want or expect anything more than just surviving.  And as it stands right now I’m barely doing that.

I’m pissed.

I never asked for these damn brain tumors (obvi) and they continue to ruin my life.  How can I expect to heal when I’m chronically stressed out about how I will survive?!

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4 thoughts on “Daily Prompt [Shock]

  1. I totally understand your frustration. I’ve been where you are and continue to face medical challenges. Don’t give up on disability. Keep fighting. File bankruptcy. Just let that stuff go. Stress is a killer. Today I pray you will be touched with a financial miracle and health miracle in your life. May peace and serenity rule your day.

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