But who knows, maybe?
In continuing from yesterday’s appointment, I also have elevated liver enzymes.
I have a fatty liver. Have had for many years.
And, to my knowledge, I don’t think liver cancer is associated with Cowden Syndrome.
But, I don’t know much.
Who knows, maybe?
My doctor said that I know more than him when it comes to this Hereditary Cancer Syndrome.
I “joked” with him that I would be the first patient to present with liver cancer. Like Chandler, I make jokes when I’m uncomfortable.
And, I’m not entirely convinced I won’t be.
So between my thyroid and liver, I feel a heavy burden upon my shoulders. Heavy.
Happy Freaking Friday to you, dear Readers! ❤
Words I actually said to my Endocrinologist today.
1. I had thyroid cancer and 2 surgeries in 2003 and ’06. My thyroid is “supposed” to be gone because cancer, papillary.
I’ve always had some remaining tissue in my left lobe area and no doctor has ever given a rip about it. The Endos just monitor it; meh, that’s fine with me.
My thyroidglobulin levels have always ALWAYS been undetectable. Until today. And I have thyroid tissue/nodule/lymph node in my right lobe. Oh, and that tissue on the left has grown.
Blergh. More later.
You know what? Some days just SUCK. Plain and simple. I’m dizzy. Nauseous. Bored. Angry at myself. Frustrated. Worried. And on and on…I kinda only realized TODAY that some days are just going to SUCK. And, I did quite a bit yesterday, so maybe that could be why today blows?
Doesn’t mean I’m doing it wrong. Or that I am bad or less than. That it’s my fault I feel like garbage. Or that the brain tumors are growing or that my elevated liver enzymes mean anything BAD.
This is just part of my “new normal” – I’m going to feel like crap
all most days. I just am. Period. I guess the sooner I get on board with this the better I’ll be.
At least, I should start convincing myself of that.
I saw my primary doctor yesterday, who I shall now refer to as the “Queen of Calm”.
QOC had my lab results that another doctor ordered. (All my docs order labs for me, sometimes duplicates too). Just depends on the day or the appointment. 🙂
We went through them and at the end of our convo QOC tells me, “Oh, but your liver enzymes are elevated.”
She said she’s not concerned. We are re-checking them in 3 months.
If QOC isn’t concerned about it, then I shouldn’t be either, right?!
I came right home and Googled, “Why are my liver enzymes raised?” and a few of the first links I read went right to Pancreatic Cancer.
One of my relatives passed away from PanCan.
Is there “data” on whether Cowden Syndrome affects the liver?
Welp, there wasn’t “data”, per a horrible GI doctor I once saw, that esophageal issues are related to CS. And, yet I was referred to a surgeon discussing a possible esophagectomy.
Can it be December already?
For Pete’s sake, I have Cowden Syndrome and Lhermitte-duclos Disease and can’t think of anything to write about today? Eeeeeesh, that’s weird. I just spent 20 minutes looking up “Blog post ideas” and got sucked into the black hole of competitors and marketing? Baha. No clue.
I have some news that I am debating about sharing here. You guys are the greatest and I know you’ll be supportive and happy for me! ❤
I decided to join a few books clubs and I am very excited to go to them. I was a huge reader before diagnosis, but then I put it away for a while because it became so challenging for me; and in fact it still is. But, I know reading is good for my brain so I am thankful to have found my passion for it again.
I ordered the books online and can’t wait for them to arrive. I’ll share them with you soon.
Fall is just around the corner; I cannot wait. Which then leads to Christmas time which is brain scan time. Blech. Saw the oncologist a few weeks ago and have a mammogram and kidney scan coming up quick. I wish I could tell you I am a pro now at these appointments, but haha, nope.
I do not want to ignore my feelings, but I then wonder am I doing myself a dis-service by not writing about them? I can’t will them away; my thoughts or what I’m experiencing. It’s a bitter pill for me to swallow as I am acutely aware of how many walls I am running into because of my wonky balance issues.
Soon enough I will write about the current brain tumor/surgery/symptoms I am experiencing. Not tonight though.
Oh one more thing. Have you watched this show? I love it so much I cannot stand it!
I long for the day when July 27 will be just like any other day.
Not today. I’m not there yet.
So today I did some good stuff:
I’ve heard it said that Cowden Syndrome is “lumps and bumps”. I don’t know who said that or where I read it, but it’s kind of stuck with me ever since I heard that phrase.
Recently added to my medical team is an ENT, whom I saw just a few weeks ago for some mouth issues. I get these skin tag type things, and had the doctor remove some of them…snippity snip.
Just this morning a new “thing” is in my mouth. It’s very hard, painful, and is shaped almost like a water blister. To say I am not moderately concerned would be a big fat lie. I am very worried. This is new.
I’m for sure not going to search “water blister bump in mouth” because I know it won’t end well. I messaged my doctor. I took a few pictures of it. I now must take care of business while I wait.
And, I’m wearing ear plugs.
I wonder if any other people living with brain tumors have increased hearing sensitivity.
My anxiety is through the roof as I’m already anticipating the
gun shots fireworks in a few hours. Taking an Ativan and calling it an early night!