I know I have the right to choose. My thoughts, my actions, whether I want to delete a social media account, whatever.
Most days, I try to choose the positive. I try to choose the happy. I try to choose the better option.
But today is not that day.
I am thankful to have this small space on the Internet where I can be me. No holds barred. Me, as I am. No filter.
I am beyond annoyed when people tell me, “Oh, you still have a brain tumor? I thought you had that removed.”
STOP. Just stop.
If you had made any effort to be a part of my life, you’d know my current situation. I choose to not share too much on the most common social media platform out there. I find it more and more comical that people choose to use that for the end-all, be-all, forms of communication. But, I digress.
Do I need to shout it from the rooftops that I still have 2 brain tumors? Of course not. But, I am not sure how to respond; rather, how to hold my tongue, when people respond to me in this way. I have found as of late that people (even some of my medical team) seem to be judging me. Judging me, or my honesty, in what I feel and experience every, single, day. If you’re not living my life, or choosing to ask me, if you find me steering clear of you, you’ll know why.
A brain tumor life is not fun, folks. The emotional strain, including financial, can be all-encompassing some days. I will just continue to gain strength to better able choose what’s best for me, until I no longer can.