I just finished my EEG and had one of the most spectacular technicians ever! She was awesome. Period. She is 100000000% in the right career field. She gave me hope that not all medical people suck!
While the test was rough (the flashing lights part was no good) she made it “less rough” (90’s R & B can make anything a whole lot better!) PLUS she listened to me.
Thank you Ms. P!
Hi there. It’s been a while; I’m still here.
I think I have written many times about my toxic financial situation post diagnosis of Cowden Syndrome and Lhermitte-duclos Disease. For the sake of time, I’ll try to snapshot it here:
- I’m in debt over $20,000 on my credit cards as I have been forced to live on them, since I can no longer do what I once did for employment.
- I have kicked around this idea for months, the bankruptcy idea. I have prolonged it as long as I could because my ego and credit score. 🙂
- I also owe over $35,000 in student loans (you know, the whole career thing I had planned before having 2 brain surgeries, et al.)
I called one of my creditors this morning to find out about any hardship programs they offered. Currently, my monthly payment is $395. Guess what program I qualify for with them? A 5 year program with a monthly payment of $370.
Am I missing something here?
So, bankruptcy is next. I have an appointment the end of February to see an attorney to just get this done and over with. (NOTE: The filing fee for bankruptcy is $1875.)
So, if you happen to see or hear from me and I am riddled with anxiety, or so depressed I cannot get out of my bed, or I’m distant or just seem off – please know it’s because life is a lot right now. It is literally costing me money to live – and I am going deeper in the hole every moment of every day.
Pretty grim right now for me, tbh.
If you happen to see me on Twitter and see my posting about my GoFundMe or my Teespring store, would you do me a solid and share then for me please?
Thank you. Until next time.
The Internet is a crazy thing, isn’t it? You can stumble across all sorts of information if you’re not careful. Without boring you to tears, I just found out someone I “know” got married last summer. Nothing but the best of course to him and his bride…but I had this super secret place in my heart that…you know…welp….I hoped beyond hope for fate to step in…and you see where I am going with this, right? This knowledge has now infected my heart and hope tonight. 😦 Blergh.
If I didn’t already know I am very lonely, I sure as heck am aware of it now!
I believe in the person I want to become.
I don’t quite see her, yet.
But, she’s near.
PLEASE NOTE: Don’t forget to check out my teespring store and see ways you too can help advocate for Rare Diseases. ❤ thank you!
There are several moments I wish I could recreate: my high school graduation; graduating from college; the day before my Dad passed away; a trip to California Adventure the beginning of July 2011 where I watched World of Color, and those are just to name a few.
I can absolutely 100% state that there is one moment I wish I never experienced, nor ever wish to experience again.
I always hoped for a traditional life. Marriage to a good man, children, a dog or a cat, I would have a career that offered something to the world, security, support, teamwork.
About 6 years ago this hope was destroyed. I am now dependent on others, unable to work, don’t have a career or security, cannot take care of myself.
Yet as I am reading this post now, why can’t I still have those things?
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I’ve lost my way. And my hope.
I’m struggling but trying to find my way back.
Being alone is one thing.
FEELING alone is something entirely different. I’m still broken about the judge’s decision. I have no hope.
I sure wish my dad were here so he could give me a hug.