I realized this week – I don’t want to have a brain scan right now. I had one in December. I don’t want another one next month.
Also, I have pondered about a lot of things lately:
- Why are the MRI’s so frequent? (About every 6 months)
- Are they this frequent to help ease my anxiety?
- Does the doctor want them this often?
- There hasn’t been “significant” growth since 2011. What does that mean?
- Does the neurosurgeon want to scan me so often because we just don’t know crap about gangliocytoma?
- Why don’t I want to have this next scan?
- Will there be (of course not) any significant change if I push the scan off 6 months?
- Should I appeal the disability denial?
- Should I refile?
- Should I file bankruptcy?
- Why can’t I catch a break?
When can I get some sleeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeep?
Check out the new custom t-shirt I just created!
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When I was little I didn’t have an imaginary friend. I always wished I did, though. Back then I always wondered, “Where do they meet their friend?” – HA. To be a kid again and have that thought be the extent of my fears: how to meet an imaginary friend.
Alas. Today? So much is different.
Where to even begin? How can I separate my fears from imaginary ones? Granted, getting diagnosed with 2 brain tumors was such a kick in the neck: I will never have any fear worse than this come true.
Having some distance from 2011 though, I can’t say I do much of imagining anything anymore.
Er. Not to sound like I am on the pity pot; it’s sad because it’s true.
I’ve lost my way. And my hope.
I’m struggling but trying to find my way back.
Being alone is one thing.
FEELING alone is something entirely different. I’m still broken about the judge’s decision. I have no hope.
I sure wish my dad were here so he could give me a hug.
I created this teespring store to raise money for my living expenses plus to raise awareness for Cowden Syndrome and Lhermitte-duclos Disease.
Take a look at the new shirt I created just now!
PS…if you know anyone that creates artwork or is willing to donate their time to help me create more shirts, please contact me! Thanks!